Perhaps you wonder why I have named this blog "Poor In Spirit." As I see it, the accompanying Bible passage, one of the beatitudes where Jesus is speaking, is directed at people who are depressed, sad, in mourning, or possibly even mentally ill. Who knows what they prevailing name for such people were in that time?
I am a depressed person. I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that keeps it from making enough of a chemical called seratonin. That chemical imbalance has affected my emotions through a wide range - everywhere from euphoria to suicidal. But, the chemical imbalance IS NOT WHO I AM.
Despite how my brain may tell me I feel, I still have the power to choose to feel that way or not. I have the power to choose to be positive or negative, happy or sad, up or down. Choice - it can be the problem, or the solution.
Choice is not easy. Some days it is very hard to even summon the will to choose how you will feel that day. And EVERY day, someone will touch your life in either a positive or negative way, and you must CHOOSE how that contact will affect YOUR outlook on life. Whatever you choose, there are consequences. But consequence is actually the fabric of how we live out every day. We choose to get out of bed in the morning and live our lives, and the consequence is doing the actual living. HOW we live is what matters.
So, "Poor In Spirit" may be the name of my blog, and it may describe a chemical imbalance in my brain, but it is not who I am or who I choose to be. It's just a description for a collection of words.
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